While I know it is not the best idea to stop posting for nearly a week when first starting a blog, I was far too busy actively pursuing one of my New Year's resolutions. I actually made a fairly long "To Do" list this year, with some as simple as drink more water or repaint the kitchen, and others that require greater levels of conscientious thought.
The past year has been a whirlwind of activity, and the past four months were particularly stressful. I had allowed a rather longterm unpleasant circumstance weaken my usual no-nonsense-pay-little-attention-forge -ahead attitude. As the semester closed, I felt drained and disappointed that I had allowed someone to make me feel so, so... toxic. I felt disconnected- both from myself and others. This MUST change.
Fortunately, I have been able to remove myself from the noxious situation and more or less distance myself from this menacing person. This is the first constructive measure. The next step, which is one of my heftiest goals for 2009, is to reconnect with my tribe. I am making a discerning effort to surround myself with those I adore most- the affirming relations.
I have taken great advantage of the semester break and have spent the past five days investing in quality time. My Muffin and I spent a lovely day together, and I must admit it has been far too long since we have. I visited my grandparents, and took a crazy adventure to Ikea with my amazing sister, Molly, and force of nature friend, Katie. Also, I had a wonderful lunch with my father, and visited with my former bass teacher, Laura. Tomorrow I have plans for breakfast tea with another old friend.
It has been genuinely lovely. I am already feeling the strings within my being bind themselves back together. I promise more active posting this week, including the first installment of The Parent Parables. Happy readings.
What do you do to revitalize when you feel full of venom or completely drained?
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Bath! Long, soapy, baths! I like to imagine that when I pull the drain it sucks all the negative crap that was clinging to me too.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a killer resolution! Love it. :)
Thanks for the tag! I got one from Shell too--I have a lot of writing to do!
Much Love,
Momo
A good smudging with white sage usually does the trick, at least to stop the downward pulling spiral in it's tracks. If followed up with some deep breathing with the intention of grounding, centering and balancing...well, then you're good to go! Easier said than done for me, as you know from visiting my blog. Thank you for stopping by and for your lovely blessing! I truly appreciate it. You sound like you did just the right thing in looking to your daily life first, and then posting to your blog. This is the right order of things, I think. Because what will we have to blog about if we aren't taking the time to live our lives? We need to gather that fodder, to fill that well before we "show up at the web page." May you find yourself surrounded with many loving kindred souls who uplift and inspire! And may all disharmonious, toxic relations be harmonized or fall away, easily, effortlessly and gracefully.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you and I had a similar start to the New Year. Cutting off ties with toxic people is a good way to start. Resolving to fill my life with tribe is also on my list! I wish you joy and many blessings!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the well-wishes and blessings. I must admit, I am very excited about meeting all of these wonderful souls through our online chronicles.
ReplyDeleteBlessings, all.